But then, the physical world realities creep back in and we fall in & out of consciousness. Our spirit drops crumbles of alternate existences that we strive to obtain, but are always a wee bit out of grasp. All that matters is that we know.... we know that they exist. They exist in that space of the unknown, where others cannot see, but makes total sense to us. Our previous insanity looks trivial to the things we now comprehend and the things we could not get before, are so "yesterday" very quickly.
"Time" speeds up and then comes to a halt at any given moment. Our scalps start to tingle like little bugs crawling or little electrical currents tingling about. That space between our eyes starts to "feel" too. Sometimes it feels like someone sitting on our forehead or weird headaches out of the blue come & go for no reason. Our heart & chest hurts and any pain buried deep within decides it is coming up whether we like it or not. It feels like we are no longer driving this bus. Like something stepped in and took over our bodies. Yet, it offers hope of something, something we cannot explain. There is a glimmer inside, even on the dark days, and we don't understand it at the time, but that my fellow loves, is your soul emerging. That is the light that we all speak of in the midst of the dark of emerging. That is the beginning of everything about to change.
The reality we once knew starts to change. Memories start to fade away. What is important is different. There is this desire within to be happy. Not like before. Not with any"thing", but happy inside. This is a quest we will travel alone to find our own selves. And we will find that we had no idea who we really were. Even this will become a new creation, as what we once were no longer exists.
We go through a period of "who am I" and "why am I here"? We question everything, seeking any bits of information that will provide us with answers showing that we are not losing our minds.
For those with the absolute brightest light emerging, the pain is perceived as excruciating, as we chose the most duality to experience to come here and help others. But first, we have to go within and see every hidden secret, acknowledge every forgotten blip and own it to let it go. Fear, shame, blame, guilt all become but thoughts that no longer exist. Those, along with judgement, right, wrong, anger, doubt, betrayal... they all just fall away.
Conflict is replaced with ease. Anger is transformed into love. And dark fades and our light emerges as the brightest, most exquisite existence of our being.
This is your purpose. This is why you are here. And this will help the masses.
Welcome to your awakening process and all part of the thing we call ascension. With each level of ascension, a new level of consciousness emerges. New levels of awareness are achieved and those little things no longer matter, as what we have access to doesn't exist in the reality of the physical. What we have now are the beginning stages of integration. Integration into one body of light.